Braising my Beef

1. what happened on your last birthday?
- rained. lets just say that im not throwing another dinner party for my birthday.

2. Yesterday?
- bought a router and installed the home network.

3. Last weekend?
- it was christmas. i was probably being lazy.

4. Last X-mas?
- popped my head in michelle’s house for noche buena.

5. Last New year’s eve?
- cooked dinner for my ex’s family.

6. Last Valentine’s day?
- i cant remember.

7. What’s the last thing you ate?
- sinigang na ulo ng isda. yummy.

8. Thing you drank?
- water

9. Thing you wore?
- UP shirt and boxers (and i’m still wearing them)

10. Last place you went to?
- does my bed count?

11. Last person you saw?
- my roommate

12. Last person u talked to
- same

13. Last person you’ve sent a msg on
friendster?
- jill marie

14. Last song you heard?
- breaking us in two, joe jackson

15. Right this VERY SECOND what are
you eating?
- none

16. What are you wearing?
- already told u

7. Any shoes on?
- i’m barefoot. i just literally woke up

18. Listening to?
- joe jackson;s cd

19. Talking to anyone?
- nope

20. Are you a vegetarian?
- nope. i dont think it will ever happen.

21. Are you artistic?
- at some point, i guess

22. Do you write poetry?
- used to. i dont want to anymore.

23. What kind of girlfriend/boyfriend
are you?
- a good one, if im not hungry or annoyed.

24. Finish this sentence: If I could be
anyone in the world for a day, I’d
be…
- nicole richie. i know its mababaw but i cant think of anyone.

25. The one thing you try to do
everyday?
- clean my room! hahahaha

26. Best thing in the world?
- chocolates, i guess.

27. Do you believe in God?
- yes

28. Whats the best advice that someone
has given to you?
- gaining 5 pounds a year makes 25 pounds in 5 years.

i feel the pressure to write something as a year ender.

one of my friends writes a yearly update of sorts - a long email about what transcended in the past 365 days of their lives. some went on to blog.

here i am, wanting to jump on the bandwagon, am puling inside my head as to whether to kvetch or sing praises for the year that has passed.

in 2006, i turned 27, witnessed two weddings, went to chicago, san diego and key west, met a lot of new people, became nicole richie for halloween sans paris, thought about learning webdesign but hasnt done anything about it, reconnected with people who vanished like a bubble, ate more krispy pata imagineable and celebrated my first christmas without cooking.

oh and im back to being single, but not playing the field. you may disagree but im generally happy with the idea of just hanging out with a couple of guys guzzling beer and wolfing down burgers.

im always game to be set up with everyone’s friends - but ive learned to NEVER COUNT ON YOUR GUY FRIENDS TO SET YOU UP WITH ANYONE WORTH KNOWING. NEVER!

a. because some of their friends are not your friends precisely because you dont want anything to do with them

b. because they will agree to set you up with someone you like but will never follow through for reasons unknown to you

c. because the guy they think who is perfect for you is just someone they like hanging out with but has no real common ground with you!

now that im back to my "one of the guys" status, im just glad to have them cockblockers around me, chugging the bubblies.

i try to ransack my head for a lesson well learned this year, but i just endlessly draw a blank line.

oh whatever. happy new year! if you are getting sloshed you better invite me!

bad news first.

my muy simpatico landlord is selling the apartment im living in — hence, there is  BIG CHANCE THAT IM GONNA BE OUT OF THIS APARTMENT. fucking hell.

i swear to god, I HATE MOVING!

thing is, carlos told me that the deal will push through around 3-4 months from now, and from then, I DUNNO WHAT THE HELL IS GONNA HAPPEN. i would like to think that the new owner is gonna keep us as tenants, but judging from the horrors of moving experiences that ive dealt with, i would rather decide on my fate than leaving to beaver. i would rather get my ass out of here, than wait and see.

who knows, the new landlord might charge me more!

so i told my friends about it, and lo and behold, one of my friends have a roommate that is about to move out, so i have one option in. big plus, is the rent. hah! a lot less than what im paying for right now.

thing is, i still have questions about moving to queens — and im not keen on taking the 7 train either. then again, the 7 train is the purple line - my favorite color line in the map - but that does not make any difference does it? 7 trainers tell me that the train is always messed up, but there’s always the option of the EGRV lines. oh well. let’s see.

im thinking of moving by the middle of january, since i just paid rent, and im not about to lose a big chunk of money again! aaargh!

right now, ive been mentally picturing what to get rid of and what to sell in craigslist and what to send back to my mother (im sure she’s thrilled to get my purse collection).

i give myself a pat on the back for being proactive on this situation. i really dont want to move, but what can i do, right?

i was even under the impression that i will be living in this apartment until i could afford to live in manhattan. i guess not.

1. My ex is still… surfing the internet (because all of them do!)

2. I am listening to… — jamie cullum

3. Maybe I should… wait for it it stop playing

5. My bestfriend/s… are the best!

6. I don’t understand… calculus

7. I lost my respect for… people who used to get it.

8. I miss.. the home team!

9. The meaning of my screen name is…
– budjette’s angry nickname for me. he called me janjanbinks behind my back. next thing he knew it was my email address!

10. Love is… — a many splendored thing?

11. Somewhere, someone is… — stalking you!

12. I will always… — stop myself from eating too much chicken macaroni salad made by my other mother.

13. Forever seems like… a diamond?! nyahahaa.

14.I never ever want to lose… my principles.

15. My mobile phone is… a dud.

16. When I wake up in the morning… i zombie into the bathroom.

17. I get annoyed at… tourists who are deathly scared of taking the new york city subway

18. Parties are… a chore if you have to be something that you arent.

19. My pet… is dead.

20. A kiss is.. a piece of chocolate.

21. Today I… did my laundry and cleaned my room.

22. I really want… my stuff back.

So-so. at any given time, if you ask my boss how his business is, that would be his answer.

i still dont understand this until now, because i always think that our small business office makes good money. to me, his saying of so-so business, even if the business is good, is just calling for the bad times that shouldnt come. it sounds like he’s perpetually kvetching about the amount of money that he isnt making, but the truth is, he makes a lot.

i got the chance to ask my other father what his take on the question of "how’s business?" back home. according to him, he’d have different answers depending on who is asking the question. if the query comes from someone who is cocky, he’d annoy him a little bit by saying that business is a bit better than it really is, but for the most part, he tells them the truth. he says it how it really is.

he explains to me that if he tells them if its bad season for business, he could seek some form of help from them in the event that the need arises. all in all, if business is good, he says so.

so after this whole explanation to me, i kind of understand what my boss is doing by blurting out his uncontented answers, but mostly i just think he just wants more money.

oh i so hate how people who make a lot still dont think its enough. they should start getting content since it will never ever be enough anyway.

1. Does anyone know your password to
your
email?
>> maybe

2. What was the last thing you ordered
at
McDonalds?
>> it would probably be coffee.

3. Are you an emotional person?
>> yeah

4. Do you like your name?
>> yeah.

5. Do you believe in love at first
sight?
>> no

6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
>> jealous about what?

7. What was the last thing you did?
>> wake up

8. Who is right next to you?
>> no one

9. Who was the last person you ate
with?
>> if the people whom i work with dont count, it would be sheila.

10. What song are you listening to
right now?
>> drunk on love by basia

11. How’s the weather right now?
>> havent checked it yet. its cold i think.

12. Last person who called you today?
>> nobody called me yet.

14. Last song you sang?
>> i cant remember.

15. Last time you danced?
>> in a club? it would be halloween. if its plain dancing, it would be at work, yesterday!

16. Lost a friendship over something
stupid?
>> probabably.

18. Last thing you ate?
>> one cookie and a glass of milk!

19. Been really depressed before?
>> hmm. not really. i try to psychoanalyze myself, and when i realize that im just depressed i start feeling happy again. its weird!

20. Faked being sick to miss school?
>> no. my mom told me to miss school to go shopping with her! hahaha.

21. What time did you wake up today?
>> 9am

22. Current taste?
>> the panis na laway taste? kakagising ko lang eh

23. Who is the person that posted this
survey?
>> doreen maria clara

24. What are you wearing right now?
>> pj’s
25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
>> no. im just picky!

26. What is the first thing you notice
about the
opposite sex?
>> comportment

27.Where are you right now?
>> my apt

28. What date and day is it?
>> sat 12 2

29. Did you go anywhere today?
>> my bed

30. What did you do there?
>> sleep

31. How old are you?
>> 27

33. Are you mature or immature?
>> a li’l of both

34. Do you call your parents by their
first name?
>> no, because my mom has a cute name. it wont annoy her, so i call her Madder.

35. Are you an only child?
>> nope. 3 kme.

36. Where do you go shopping?
>> gap, old navy, h&m and sometimes, forever 21.

37. Do you like where you work?
>> yup.

38. Do you like books?
>> love is the word.

39. Do you want to get married?
>> oh yeah! not now though.

40. To whom?
>> gael garcia bernal. hmm. stella bernal? does not sound pornstarrific! great!